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Well this is my first blog I have ever written. I have heard about the 12-step program many times but never fully gotten myself to try it out.
I come from a family that was torn apart from an alcoholic father.
He was physically, mentally, and verbally abusive.
I am 18 years old and have continued to try to reconcile with this man.
Yet everytime he pushes me out of his life and trys his hardest to keep it that way.
So I am starting my own personally rehabilitation, my own 12-step program, my own fast.
I will no longer be a slave to an alcoholic. I will no longer be drawn to trying to get my dad to love me, for I have been proven to time and time again he isn't going to change.
He attempted to become sober which in some ways was beneficial, but unfortunately went from
being a full blown alcoholic to a dry drunk.
A dry drunk if you are unaware is someone who still acts as they did when they drank. But more so now they are even more angry because they are living with the feeling that something was stripped from them.
I am in the process of rebuilding and nuturing myself after a rough past of living with a man who attempted to rob me of everything. I don't blame him and never will. I blame myself for continually putting myself in a vunerable position of being let down and holding expectations for no reason.
I will go by the quote "set limits, change expectations"
and continue my path to letting go of the need to try to change the unchangable.
Keian7
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